Not literally, but today I’ve felt like God has blown me over with his awesomeness and I can only fall to my knees in amazement and worship of a most holy, loving God.
My last blog post explains a little of what God has been doing. He’s been asking me to trust Him in the midst of change He’s preparing me for. I have no idea what all that means, but I get glimpses. One change was my car accident and everything that changed. I can’t do my road trips right now to visit with partners and share about Wycliffe and my ministry – putting myself completely in God’s hands to provide and be my advocate.
I walked into church and this was the song that started off this amazing day of being blown over by God’s presence:
I claimed that God is my Healer in such a real way today. No, I’m not physically healed right now but I am reminded of the truths He’s been teaching me and that He WILL heal me. In the midst of insurance companies,…well, everything…He is greater and NOTHING can stand against me because He is for me!
I also claimed Him as my Jehovah Jireh. Walking into church I was a little late as I had a slow morning getting going (a fun night ended late and my body is a little stiff in the morning)….my pastor took a quick moment from a conversation he was having to shake my hand and tell me we need to talk as the church wants to support me. Ever have God grab you and say “See, trust me. I can do it all.”? When God starts the Sunday off with that it’s pretty amazing.
Then we went into “You won’t Relent”
He won’t relent until He has all of me, and I don’t want Him to stop until He has it all. One of the verses that God brought to my attention recently is Jeremiah 20:9 “…His word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my bones…” I can’t hold it in but must speak it out! The verse of this songs speaks to wanting Him to be the fire inside of me, the flame upon my heart. I see Him stripping me away, purifying me to become clean like Him. To be the light and shine His light all around me.
“I don’t want to talk about you like you’re not in the room. I want to sing right at you.” As I sang out to my Savior I could sense Him there, reaching out to me, taking my hands, and being right there with me. I was in the throne room, in His presence. In all that’s happened this week He’s been so real and close. Yes, I’ve had to reach out to my circle of friends to help me refocus (sermon today was so relevant!) but He has just been drawing me closer and closer to Him. I’ve been longing for that (besides just me reading the Word) and sometimes feeling a little lost as to how to draw closer and feel the closeness. But today wow, did I feel Him!
Who’da thunk that a car accident would be the catalyst to sitting in my Father’s arms, praising Him and marveling in His presence and love. What an awesome God I serve!
Oh, and to top it off? This evening I received an email notification that a blessed anonymous person sent in a large financial gift. (Whoever you are, blessings and thank you!) God loves to take me out of the picture and just provide. There are other things today that filled me up and made me smile and laugh but I can’t write about everything. 😉 Sharing how God knocked me to my knees in praise is enough.