Today someone told a story. It was a modern-day reselling of Gideon with an Ethiopian twist. The story isn’t so important as the question he asked afterwards: “When did he hear God?” Then he asked when did the Israelites hear Him in their 40 years of wandering. He also mentioned our three typical responses when we think of God answering – yes, no, or wait. My answer was that God was talking, but they weren’t listening.
It was enough to pull me out of my own brooding and to question myself. I’ve had my ups and downs over the last year, but recently I’ve been wondering where God is. I’ve told myself I’m not listening much and need to do something about it. Easier said than done!
But today took me back to a time when God was speaking clearly to me and how I was seeing Him answer. Then he said “wait”…or “no.” Which it was doesn’t really matter as much as my response – frustration and anger at my Redeemer. He was trying to teach me a lesson, to go deeper in prayer and trust, and I resisted because I had my own plan of how He was supposed to do things.
While He continued to speak and I listened about other things, that grudge has now become my hindrance. So I repent and pick up my lesson once again. God is always there, speaking and listening. But am I there, ready to listen and obey? Am I willing to trust even when things don’t make sense or happen in my timing and my way?
Trust is a constant lesson for me to learn – so many facets to it. But my prayer is that I start learning this facet and continue to open my heart to the only One who won’t crush it or reject me.
Are you listening today?