Since I’ve been back in the USA I’ve had lots of questions that either I struggle to answer or just have to tell the person to pick a different question as I didn’t have an answer or couldn’t emotionally handle the answer or just hadn’t processed through it enough.
Today at church someone asked me if I was back because my time of serving overseas was complete. It was one of those questions I didn’t know how to answer because I didn’t feel like my time was necessarily complete yet I knew my option to stay had ended. I had expected to be overseas and in Africa for several more years and felt like I had just arrived on the continent.
One of the ladies standing there, who is also my friend, saw the look on my face (not sure if it was consternation or signaled the distress in my spirit) and answered for me. Very deliberately she spoke looking at me and answered what I also needed to hear – “Your time serving in Ethiopia is complete.” In that moment she spoke truth into my life and brought me one step closer to healing and processing. Truly, my time living in Africa is complete because God clearly deemed it so. Though I may feel like it wasn’t for a variety of reasons, I can see His plan and know that He brought me off a continent that has taken me through many ups and downs.
So while my role and work continue in the exact same realm, I will not be living on that continent any more and my time there is complete. No matter what I feel, no matter my opinion, God decided my time there was complete and took me away. It’s not easy to accept, but I am learning. Each day is a new step towards healing and rehydrating my soul that has long been in drought.